Happiness must come from within

Actually Alevels makes for a good weight loss program.

Before the paper I feel like puking, nothing tastes nice.

After the paper I just want to sleep / run / swim.

That is probably the only good thing about the As. Other than the END.

And I just found my sunscreen for the face. Means I haven’t been using it for at least a month omg. Dr Tan’s gonna kill me next week. I hope he can’t tell!!!

Cant wait for HPDH later wheeeeee. Gonna squeeze in some shopping with th before the movie starts too! =D I hope Zara’s TRF collection has good stuff!!

Got the flu jab today PLEASE LET THERE BE NO SIDE EFFECTS (FEVER).

But more importantly, PLEASE LET THERE BE NO H5N1 WHEN WE GET THERE

I will never forget the days spent in quarantine having H1N1, so terrible!!

Went for a run, the 3rd this week! Yay getting back on form.

And… I shouldn’t have flipped open the magazines mummy bought. T.T Suddenly awakened my recently dormant shopping urges.

Shu Uemera’s latest launch - Abracadabra looks super cute but the packaging is all I like haha, all the shades are too colourful to ever put on my face.

Checked out holiday season nail colours on OPI i love the “try it on” function! Love how they name all the colours too! Sigh why do nail polish never last long? Half of my collection dried up already T.T Maybe cos they’re all cheapo nail polish from faceshop haha

I love pinterest more and more! Love how easily I can pin stuff from anywhere with Pin It. Sihui says she’s quitting tumblr HAHA nah I won’t. Tumblr for the random funny stuffs, Pinterest for all the pretty things!

Shall go mug econs. sigh

Feeling superrrr queasy bleh. if I have exams every day I’ll def be able to lose weight cos I have no appetite at all.

This whole journey is like… a korean drama.  Tooo damn draggy. Time is crawling I JUST WANT IT TO BE OVER…..

Hurry upppppppppppppppppppppp I’m going bonkers

Running really makes me less restless so yay

Sad thing of the day is that manzhu restaurant has closed down from 18th nov to 24th Jan SIGH. I was so looking forward to having lunch/dinner after gymming/swimming/running in the hols.

AND it keeps raining in the afternoon. looks like it’s gonna rain now. =[ Hope this kind of weather ceases by next friday because it’s HELLO FREEDOM ON FRIDAY! Jess Tzuhsiang and I are going to shop/slack/eat/everything and anything we feel like doing right after the paper wheee. Can’t wait can’t wait. 

Sometimes we ask questions, when we actually have the answers. What were we exactly expecting? A different truth? A kindly truth?

Everyone says they want the truth, but of course. But sometimes we secretly wish truth isn’t that harsh. How many can actually take it, or accept it as it is instead of seeking another perhaps more favorable truth?

Just did some spring-cleaning.

Found 5 strips of panadol, all almost full, forgot I used to be a panadol junkie last time. Well at least I don’t eat them anymore. But they’ll come into use sooner or later.

Some things I don’t know whether to throw or not, are most people hoarders too? There are so many things that have memories attached and some emotional value, such that even if they are useless it’s difficult to just see them as merely ‘things’, or junk.

Spring cleaning is strangely therapeutic somehow, maybe because there is a semblance of order, even when all else is a mess.

Papa is wants to build a treehouse, now he and mummy are surfing the internet to look for treehouse ideas haha super amused. Will be cool though, maybe it’ll be like a  sanctuary. Unless they are planning to make it into a permanent mahjong room. Hopefully not lol. Ok they’ve decided on something like this but with less balcony space and one set of stairs. Haha hope he’s serious it’s starting to sound like a lot of fun.

Lacking the adrenalin rush that should have came with the run. All I want to do is just sleep everything away.

It is always easier to say something, words can be beautiful but that is all that they are. To really mean it, believe in it and do it… It is a totally different matter.

Can’t wait to

- play with zejun and leiya for all of saturday nights instead of having to come up to study

- reorganize my wardrobe!

- go on shoes hunt to find the shoes i’ve been wanting since forever

- watch HARRY POTTER!!

Yes this is one of the many lists, but they are going to be fulfilled soooooon!!

so restless gah my mind keeps running all over the place

I just wanna get lost in a book (non-academic). or some dramas, movies, whatever.

List of dramas I wanna watch:

Hellcats, Heroes, OC, True Blood/Vampire Diaries, Big Bang Theory

Mmm can’t think of anything else but that is already more than enough lol

So the terrible week is OVER. Finally. Super therapeutic to throw out all the files and notes.

Totally am going to erase all the horrid memories.

And I didn’t freeze! My trusty heatpacks -

My sleep deficit is still increasing unfortunately, and I’ve got massive dark eye circles to show for it T.T I miss my sec1-4 10pm bedtimes and year5 10.30pm bedtime.

Went out today with mummy to borders book sale. Wasn’t that great, the MPH one was better. But FIRST TIME SETTING FOOT INTO A SHOPPING MALL SINCE EONS AGO! haha. But cramps was terrible didn’t even feel like shopping much. And now my headache is like a… I can’t even think properly to describe it! Want to sleep but there’s still lit to chiong oh well. 2 MORE WEEKS.

so tired I no longer feel jittery. neither is good though.

guess I’ll just have to settle for tiredness cos history ain’t even half done yet (why is my mind like a sieve?).

Tmr will be a better day (after 5pm).

Gonna head home straight, not going to stay back to hear her discuss(makes me feel unsure and a whole lot worse). Go home, clear history, FINALLY, and go for a massage. And forget that this week happened. Right.

Already planning my getaway trip after March 6th(supposedly we get back our results on this day). Mummy said we can just fly to Bangkok so yea. Totally prepared for the best/worst.